It was another huge fight
. . . Wham, he slammed me up against the wall, "You f*******
bitch"! That was it! I couldn't take the abuse anymore and
in a millisecond I made a decision that would change my life
forever. I
picked up my little dog and headed out the door. My car was
parked in the driveway and as I got in the front door of the house
burst open,
"Don't ever come back, you f****** c***!!".
As I drove down the road my hands were shaking but the wind was in
my face and for the first time in twenty-nine years of marriage I
felt free from his control, abuse, and humiliation. I'd left before and
returned to even more abuse but this time I knew in my heart that
I would never be back.
Tears filled my eyes as I thought of all the valuable time I had
wasted . . . but I had two wonderful sons and my little dog who had saved my life many times in that stormy, hateful
relationship.
Time passed and I was still feeling sorry for myself. It was a
beautiful morning and I was sitting on a park bench. The sun was warm
and I closed my eyes lost in thought. That's when one of
my angels spoke to me in a soft voice, "You're a Goddess. Wake
up!"
It was a magical turning point for me, a small crumb of
encouragement that started the rebirth of my lost soul. Since that
fateful day I've pulled my life together and many good things have happened to me .
. . I co-hosted a radio show, met new friends, and got a
life.
The other day a friend asked me, "After all you went through don't
you hate men?". I smiled, "No . . . I know there's a Mr. Wonderful
out there somewhere and I know deep in my heart that some day we will find each
other."
Yes, my angels still guide me. Just the other
day I was walking on the beach when I saw an old friend who almost
fainted when I told her I was getting a divorce. She said everyone
always thought we had this storybook marriage. When I told her
what my life was really like she was appalled.
I wished
that I had an outlet to vent my feelings and as I
got to my car and opened the door and an old picture of my wuzband
fell to the ground. I picked it up and said, "I wish I could
tell the world about my story so I could help other women
survive in relationships like mine." And a little voice in
my head said, "Do a website".
So that's how this all started. It's been a lot of fun putting this website together. Sometimes
I
laugh so hard that tears stream down my face. Through it all, the lesson that
I've learned is that if you find yourself in one of life's little
garbage heaps you're not alone, you'll get through it, and
yes, there really is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Start the healing process now! I guarantee you'll start feeling good
about yourself in no time. And not only will your friends have a
few laughs and tears over this, but you'll find that many of them
have been through this too, or know of someone who has.
Good luck
in your journey, the Goddess and her friends are here for you.
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